*sigh* I'm officially off of my grounding as of 4:30am this morning. I've been up for the last three days straight, too, mostly because I've been drawing. Well, I've been grounded...what else am I supposed to do?! Anyways, I've been keeping myself busy since I last updated. I finally broke down last night. I was crying. Everyone around me has their lives falling apart around them, yet all I cannot seem to get out of my head is graduating and becoming a nothing. I entered school a nothing, and I made something of myself. Now, I'm about to graduate, and I'm going to return to being a no name, wanna be artist. *sigh* I am so sorry for being a selfish bastard. I understand if anyone out there hates me. Then,Friday, I talked with Ash for a while on the phone. She's the only one that knows this...but I'm having the fucking hardest time shaking the feeling that I'm being used by the person I consider a friend. I mean...I know it's wrong, but day after day...it's only a feeling, but the look in their eyes. I don't get it. I can offer them the world, they'd take it...but the second I ask for something or trying something, I'm slapped in the face and get down. I came to this realization during creative writing Friday and all I wanted to do was run...which I did. Heh...that seems to be a common theme with me and my friends. *sigh* Well, the sun is coming up. It's been so long since I actually sat here and watched it raise. I'm always up, but never watching. It's so beautiful. A gift from God on our cursed world. Well, I'm outta here. I'm sorry for ranting. Maybe I'll give an update of my weekend events later. So, until then...this is everyone's favorite baka futori haisha Senji-ku signing off, saying ja mata and catch ya on the flip side. Random Quote:Please remember, big brother. Nina...such a small character, but so much heart. God...why do I always cry when I watch those two episodes....?!