REMEMBER, THIS IS MY DIARY, I DO NOT HAVE TO EXPLAIN ANYTHING I WRITE, OR ANSWER TO ANYONE. I HAVE BEEN ANOREXIC AND BULIMIC FOR GOING ON THREE YEARS. I HAVE BEEN A SELF MUTILATOR FOR ALMOST 5. I AM CURRENTLY IN "RECOVERY" SO PLEASE I HAVE A VERY FRAGILE IMAGE OF MYSELF SO PLEASE BE GENTLE WHEN LEAVING COMMENTS. IF YOU HAVE NEVER BEEN WHERE I AM, YOU WILL NEVER KNOW THE PAIN AND THE SUFFERING AND YOU WILL NEVER KNOW HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO TRY TO CHANGE. DO NOT ASK ME HOW TO BECOME ANA OR MIA. IT ISN'T FUNNY AND IT ISN'T GLAMOROUS. IT ISN'T JUST A QUICK WAY TO LOSE WEIGHT EITHER. IT IS A DISEASE AND IT WILL SLOWLY DESTROY YOUR LIFE. I DON'T WISH THIS ON ANYONE! I HAVE PUT A DISCLAIMER ON HERE, DO NOT REPEAT ANYTHING YOU READ HERE. DO NOT SEND ME HATE MAIL. IF YOU DON'T LIKE WHAT YOU READ HERE, THEN LEAVE. THIS ISN'T A PRO ED DIARY. BUT I DO HAVE AN ED. SO DON'T BASH ME, I AM TRYING. IT IS YOUR CHOICE WHAT YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE, DO NOT BLAME ME OR MY DIARY FOR ANYTHING YOU CHOOSE TO DO. Hey beautiful peoples! And all the other random peoples who read my diary! What's up? Not much here. I am thinking about not tutoring anymore. I love helping other people, but it is cutting into my own work time. I dunno. Ha Ha don't you just love karma? My mom has a peice of glass stuck in her foot and it cuts her everytime she puts weight on it. Then she ripped off her fingernail when taking off jeans. So what comes around, well you know the rest. Anyways. Day 38 yay. Go God! LoL. I'm soooo insane. You know what, I was talking to Gina today and she was asking me questions like probing me ya know, she wanted to know about my scars and my eating habits and everything and she said that she was a self mutilator and Mia. I dunno how true that is, because just a few weeks ago she was talking junk about ED ppls and SM. So, I don't think I really believe her, but if she really is..... I dunno. I dunno what is with my mom. For the past month she has been all like ugh I can't stand Gary yada yada ya. Now their all like lovey dovey. It gives me a headache just to think about it! I was the only person to show up to my English class so i got to leave. Oh well. i have to go talk to my HSE professor to make up some work. Blah. Oh well I am gonna get going. TTYL Kayla