Is it wrong to want to spend every minute with the person you are in love with? Is it wrong to feel like you are in love after only one month? Is it wrong to want with that person what you have wanted your entire life? Marriage, Kids, the whole house nestled in the woods with the dogs and cats chasing each other in the front yard. I feel so strange, as though everything is falling into place-- The Job, the guy, the family stuff(My family issues) school-just everything seems perfect. So what is the only downfall? He is still married... Yea I know that I should know better but it is just I care about him sooooooo damn much, He is trying to get a divorce and I am trying to stay out of it and so far I have done well. Ahh why can't I stop thinking about him!? Why can't I sleep unless I am with him? This is insane. I know it sounds silly but I think of him all the time. He steals all of my thoughts and the best part is I DON"T CARE! I like it. I am actually happy. The only thing that I am afraid of is that he well leave me again, I know I shouldn't be insecure- she did mess up and I am totally happy I just can't help but think... He broke my heart and went back to her once.. what is gonna stop him from doing it again. I think to myself, he was with her for 3 years and he married her...would it be possible for her to convince him that she has changed... and if she could- would he take her back? Why am I so afraid? Well I am gonna go watch TV. Take care cyber people. Kayla Kayla