damn, i didnt think they'd have chillin int the mood. that is so me. almost all of the time. so anyway. i'm back from camping. wonderful doesnt quite describe it. she's sick it sucks. but you know i'll still kiss her. i think it pisses her off. that sucks. i'll suffer for her tho. it doenst bother me if i get sick cause she's still the best damn kisser ever. some good things happened this weekend. she started shaking in the middle of the night from being sick. i was so worried about her. i wanted to sit by her side till she fell asleep, but she yelled at me and made me go to bed. even in all her pain and discomfort she puts me first. i find myself wondering if i diserve her. i dont think i could handle seeing her crying. i heard her tho. i was holding her as we went to go home. i cant really tell you guys why. dont worry anyone we werent fighting. it took everything i had to hold my own inside. i dont ever want my baby to be in pain and i felt helpless cause there was nothing i could say. all i could do was hope she knew how much i love her. so i was sure to tell her. did i do the right thing? everyone give me some advice fo real. advice rocks. advice on anything you want to give. i missed her as soon as i got back to my place. i wanted to hold her more. i worked all day today. that blew. all i wanted to do was talk to tonya. ten hours of hard labor, but we had some fun. tonya has been telling me i need to practice parallel parking. well, i'm a pig headed guy. so i thought i didnt need to. i had to move my dads truck today. it's a very big truck. so just to prove to myself i parallel parked it. i nailed that shit homies. i'm gonna go practice somemore tomorrow night after i go to church. i hope to see tonya also. it's three months for us. it might as well be three years cause this shit aint gonna end. everyone trying to wait in line for her needs to look else where. aight, i'm bout to be out. tonya, i love you. peace.