today... well, it was definitly there. went to see tonya early in the morning. came home, awaited two other members of DharmaKaya to come. set up kreamer's drum set. played a little songage. we need to get a guitarist here so we can really write. tonya's all againstish with that band but she's all for this other band that i met with the guitarist of tonight, i dont get her deal. i dont know about it really, i dont think they're gonna fit me, i'm supposed to go on sunday and jam, but really dont want to. i like practicing at my house, i like my band, i like my friends. after the bullshit i went thru with skyrooster, all the lying mother fuckers and shit i'm really hesitant to be in another band. i dont know these people at all. anyone can easily lie to you about anything. i dont even know if i wanna meet them. they supposedly didnt drink and shit and now i find out the guitarist drinks on occasion and the singer and drummer are fucking drunk pot heads, the more i think about it, no fucking way. i'll stick with my band. i dont have time for people who are fucking wastes like that. yeah, screw it, i know tonya's gonna get pissed or something, but fuck that too. god, the world is fucking useless i want to fucking kill every fucking drug user and dealer, and even the people who pretend they do drugs and shit. it angers me so much. god i'm pissed now. fuck it all, i'm going to bed.