so anyway, i decided to devide my rants and my raves... this will be the good part of my shits... has anyone seen this show "nanny 911" its so funny, it's when these people who have no fucking clue on how to raise children decide to have like 40 little rascals and shit... you know... and then are like 'why cant my kids be in control" and they refuse to correct them... and are like "my kids are out of control" and i'm not talking about hitting them, but geeze they dont even give them time outs.. they just act like they are little kids.. so anyway, the nanny comes in and starts showing them how it's done and gets the kids to start listening in like two days and then the parents are like "i dont wanna do it that way," and then the kids go back to being hellions in like ten minutes then they finally start listening to the nanny and the kids become well behaved again. i seriously found myself taking notes last night... i thought it had wonderful pointers and tips... i know i dont have kids yet but you gotta learn now before you have to learn.. it will keep the stress down that way.. tonya and i cant wait to have kids, but she really wants to get her nursing degree so we're gonna wait until after she gets that... then we can have little hellions of our own and it will be great... i'm so proud of tonya right now.. when i met her she's like "i'm never going anywhere, i have no future, i dont believe in love and i dont ever want to get married" and now she's like "i wanna be a nurse and nothing is gonna stop me, i love dwayne, and i wanna marry dwayne" whoever this dwayne fellow is, he is one lucky guy, let me tell you.. i'd like to think that i have had something to do with this change, but in reality, shes done more to change me... well, let me refraze that she thinks she needs me, but if i were gone she could stick to her goals and make it on her own, i could not make it without her.. she is so important to me... she gives me a reason to succeed. i succeed so we can live together and be happy healthy and well... so anyway... that's all my raving i had to do,, can you imagine that this and the entry before it were one entry last night before my computer froze... so anyway, i love tonya so much and she makes my life not suck so i will love her forever.... bye bye