the best part of waking up is the fact that my lovely girlfriend fiance' wife calls me every morning. it makes my day start off good every day. last night i cooked her dinner and ate it with her by candle light and put soda in wine glasses and got out the good china, and i hope she liked it. i havent cooked in so long i didnt think i'd do a good job, but she said i did. i also burnt her six cds she wanted so that made her happy too. this morning i have to give a speech in my management class, i'm ready for it but i havent given a speech in a long time, and it's gonna be weird. in high school i knew all of the faces staring back at me. now i know about three people. they can burn in hell, i'm gonna rock my stage gear and look crazy today so they have a reason to stare. i miss tonya. happy crying is good. i miss tonya. i'm gonna go shower cause i'm sitting here in my underwear ( get your hands out of your pants ). DXE