what's the point of being honest with someone when the wont be honest with you? what is the point of loving some buddy unconditionly when their love is divided between you and other things? why respect someone's wishes when they cant respect yours? why respect someone when they cant respect you? why treat someone fairly when they treat you as nothing? do i mean nothing? am i nothing? i feel as nothing. i feel nothing. why be happy when happiness was ripped from me? is it wrong to pretend i'm happy when my soul, or whatever the fuck is in me that sanctions my thoughts, is being destroyed? when you build something on lies, the truth destroys the foundation and it all crumbles. but why would you build on lies? i built on lies myself, but they were the lies of others and i had no control. my foundation crumbled without me ever knowing, it just fell apart and the roof caved in on me. i wish the cave in would have killed me, but i'm still here, i'm still kickin'. and i'm gonna kick in the fucking face of anyone who get's in my way now. i'm coming back with fucking vendetta and blood lust, not to mention angst and bain. i'm so fucking pissed so fucking hurt. i'd like to thank diag and kate for being there in my current rough time. tonya, john, kristen, alicia, and my sister for getting me thru all the past rough times, and anyone who is there in the future. i also want to put a call out there for any strait edgers, vegan edgers, hard edgers, and anyone who is anti-drug, to contact me. i will explain later. i'm gone.