so i'm sitting here, doubting myself. i doubt my ability to perform at the upcoming show. i doubt my abilities as a boyfriend. i doubt i'll make a good husband or father. i dont know what the hell i'm going to do with my life. i'm too fucking lazy to do anything. god, what the hell. tonya thinks i have all of this potential, but i don't. i'm just good at faking. god. fuck life right now.