I don't know what to do, I am so afraid of opening up to Jake. I don't want to get hurt. He's so nice and sweet, plus he listens really well, he's the type I could just sit there and talk to and tell everything about me. The last time I really opened up to him I was crying for almost an hour. That was the day I told him how I really feel about him. I am just afraid of falling for him even more, letting this love thing get the best of me. What if I fall for him, and he doesn't feel the same way? Then I am just screwed. Oh wait I am already there, or so I think. I am sooo sick of messing around with these immature little boys. I want someone ready to start a long time relationship, not just a little two monther, that's not what I am looking for anymore. Sure two years ago I would have been like, don't want a long lasting thing, but now I think I have grown up. Ready for that next step in life. I just wish I could meet someone who is interested in the same thing, but noooo, that would mean helping Melissa out. Life wouldn't want to do that, it enjoys it soo much more when I am on the ground, beating it with my fist screaming "why the hell does this always happen to me," Yes that makes everything just fine and dandy. Well it's not for me, so leave me alone and give me a hand I can keep forever!