Well now, I have no idea what happened to the first love of my life. It seams that he has dropped from this Earth. I miss that lost love of mine. Love in a way. I will always love Sean. he was sweet and everything I could ever want for my first, well my first everything. The last time I talked to Sean things were said. Things that I know were not true. I never meant to hurt you Sean. I will always love you. Though i know if you saw me now, you wouldn't want to beleive i am the same innicent girl you fell in love with all those years ago. I am everything you said I would turn out to be that last night. Lost and afraid in this fucked up life. I miss talking to you, and hearing about your day. I miss laughing with you. Most of all I miss the friendship we shared. I hope one day you will be able to forgive me for all the fucked up things I said and did. I miss you Sean and I wish you the best. There are things I want to know, like; what did you do with your life? Where do you live now? Are you married? Any kids?? i don't know if you still read this, or even if you are still alive. But i am doing alright. I have a full time job, a buetiful little girl, i am in the military and loving it, I am "seeing" someone new. i hope all is well with you. Love ALWAYS Melissa