It's about time. My little sister doesn't want to see me hurt, so she asked Jake how he feels about me. She asked him if he has feelings for me and he said yes. So now I know that he does care about me. That makes me happy! I am a little pissed at my friend. I told her about how Jake wants kids now, and she said, "so do I, you should hook us up." I was just like, ummmm no he's mine, lol. It hurt me that she would say that. But then she was like, "oh I thought you meant another friend of yours." I was a little confussed, but oh well. I hope she really thought that, Jake means a lot to me, and I would hate for her to want to take him from me. But, oh well! Everyone keeps on telling me that Jake is going to die on me. They are like, "Melissa if he is going to Iraq, you know he's going to die on you." I don't need their help, I'm already having nightmares about it. I don't want to think that he is going to die. I just want to think that he is going to live. I love him sooo much, and I don't want him to get hurt. I need to go and see him before he leaves. I will go and see him before he leaves. He hasn't been on yet today, but the good news is, he's not mad at me. That makes me happy! It's good that he isn't pissed at me, I was just letting the dark spot in my mind think. Well I guess I better go now, later Mel