Hi people, don't you hate it when your best friend is mad at you for something stupid??? This sucks! Amanda is pissed at me I guess. I think it's stupid, I don't even know why she's mad at me. She thinks that she has lost me or something. I don't know what the fuck to do, maybe I should go back to my old ways, party party, get fucked up and then add a little cut here and there. Hmmmm, that sounds nice. Or should I just leave this fucked up state, and break all contact from everyone? I know I'll join the army and hope I go to Iraq and die. That would be nice. But nooo, I'm stronger than that, suicide is no way out for me. Wouldn't go to well with my style, lol. Oh Amanda if you read this, Erik called me on friday night wanting me to go party with him and get drunk. Good thing I was camping. Right now I have a killer headache, it sux. Sometimes I just want out of all these fucked up problems and this fucked up world. I really want to see jake before he goes to Iraq, hopefully I do, that would be kool. My cousins want to throw me a graduation party, they want to get me fucked up, lol that's funny! Well I guess I'm gonna go, later peoples Mel