Jake is sooo mad at me. I feel horrible! Yesterday we were talking and well, he told me that he is going to Iraq anywhere from June- March. He doesn't know when he is going just sometime between then. I told him that when he goes he will forget about me, he asked how, and I asked how could he remember me. I said, "I'm just some stupid chick who fell for you over the internet who doesn't matter." And he was like, "whatever, bye." And he just got off line, he hasn't been on today. I feel so bad right now. I sent him an off line message saying that it's hard for me to tell if he cares about me the way I do him when he won't tell me how he feels. Why do guys do that? They let you think whatever you want to think. They don't tell you how they feel. I just wish Jake would open up and tell me. Everytime he asks me how I feel, I tell him. In his words "we can't have a strong relationship if we don't tell eachother stuff." I feel so bad, i love Jake and am soo worried about him going to Iraq. I've had nightmares since he told me. It's horrible, and he won't get on. Now I'm gonna start crying. I just care about him too much. I want to be with him, and if I can't have that, then I want to be friends. Either way I want him in my life. Well I'm gonna go now, later people Mel