today was the funeral, it sucks cuz i cant be there and i really wanted to ( my grandfather lives in Canada) my dad couldnt get time off work to come get me and bring me up there. my cousin says the funeral was beautiful and the papa would have been proud... last night i stayed up till like 230 talkin to Akai, we were naming his band and this is what we came up with 1) forever jaded 2) jaded life 3) jaded murder 4) devilishly jaded 5) jaded plan 7) jaded waters 8) jadedslaves 9) jaded worlds they are playing at hylands in the summer and they might be gettin signed and thats cool cuz the band is gonna be named after me, they just need a drummer. he also made a song for me Jaded Days if i left tonight would you even care if i sang your song would you even listen and if i died tonight would you shoot my heart so i cant feel the pain (cant remember) what it like to love i feel like ive died in a land where i was deprived im lost with out of my mind but here i am today and theres nothing left im still suffering from my jaded days (jaded days) jaded days you put me in when you let go of the heart of a confused boy (if i died tonight) would you shoot my heart so i cant feel the pain (cant remember) what it like to love i feel like ive died in a land where i was deprived im lost with out of my mind but here i am today and theres nothing left im still suffering from my jaded days maybe a little time from the tired eyes will settle all the cries i have in my heart (if you freed the pain you wash away) all the fears i have of you shoot my heart so i cant feel the pain (cant remember) what it like to love i feel like ive died in a land where i was deprived im lost with out of my mind but here i am today and theres nothing left im still suffering from my jaded days i can not take this one more time (my tired eyes filled with cries) my summer blizzard (is clouding my winters heat) 'cause you made me suffer from my Jaded Days it like explains my feelings and pretty much what i have been going through almost but i love it and i cant wait till they put the instrumentals in and i can hear it i will write more later or tommorow or something