i just got this email from my friend out in Indiana. this guy that i have known for so long and that has been there for me through a lot is going to Iraq. its like why cant i just get a break, i love him so much, he is just so awesome. and now i might not be able to see him again. just thinking about not ever seeing him agian is so heartbreaking. all i want to do is cry. ugh god i fucking hate this so much. and sarah thanx 4 that last comment but i deserve your pain and my pain. you deserve to live a happy pain free life, i dont. and i would do anything to give you that life.