last night. it was fun, well parts of it were fun. dave was drunk, i had to like hold him up. it was funny. i danced with sean lol axel was there, he told hayley that 'i was beautiful but he hates me' lolme and him have a long history together. surprisingly i had the urge to want to dance with him, but they didnt play any slow songs. idk i want to be friends with him agian. the night was also very painful. stephen wasnt there and both the songs came on. i couldnt help myself, i broke down. i balled my eyes out. i miss him so much. and i love him very much i feel so incomplete without him. like i am empty. walking around as half a person and i saw sarah cry for the first time tonight because of chane. i hated seeing her cry. it was heartbreaking. i want her to be happy and not have to deal with pain :( just remember sarah, i love you very much and i am hear for you always. oh and i got wicked drunk afterwards (thats what a bottle of whine and half a bottle of vodka will do to you lol) me and jess and tisha, and kayla all got drunk together, it was fun, it was good to have forgotten about all my pain dave is cheating on me!