i hate this holiday i think it should be abolished. it just makes people feel more alone and depressed.i just want this day to be over with. a block was okay,i told mr. bail that i didnt like him lol sarah. and thats like the only good thing that happend today. i am so sick of hearing 'happy valentines day' the next person who tells me that i am going to say: well its not very happy i hate it i want it to be over with' then i am going to like punch them or something. i was like gonna flip out on the first person who said that to me (especially with the people who know what else happens on this day) but i am too sick i can like barely breathe, my aunt was going to come and get me from school early today but my mom was being a bitch and wouldnt let me go. oh yeah i got in trouble last night by my stepdad for knocking on the door wrong, how gay is that? i hate him with a passion. i am like walking around the halls of this school and it seems like everyone has someone to share this holiday with but me. and that just makes me more depressed, there is no way i can like be happy. like at all. i have been just pretending only because i am trying to stop myself from bawling my eyes out. i am so jealous of everyone who is happy, i wish i could be. just for one day. i dont think its going to happen though, not for awhile,only a few people know why and its too heartbreaking to explain agian. i just want this all to end.