i need a fucking job. every one else i no pretty much has a job and can buy stuff and all that shit, yet not me. i swear to god places wont hire me just cuz i got long black hair and i am guy... thats fucking discrimination... i think... fuck those fukerz. i need money so i can get more pot and vodka... thats basically my life right there and video games its. its pretty pitiful i no... i thnik i have such drinking problems cuze i am always stressed i use it as an antie depressint. if only life was not so hard and corrupted i would have no problems but no life just has to have so many obstacles i just want to drop tpo the floor and give up. i have had enough off it all i dont wanna be seen as the odd one in school or be staired at all the time but people just cant leave me alone cuze the way i look, just cuze i am a Goth i am seen as calling for attention , and thats not the case at all if by any means. Is it my fault for not believing in false beliefs such as jesus, yet as i maybe a goth it does not mean that i am a satanist that again is another false belief, yet if i believed in one the opposit would be there thats why i just cancel them both out. Religion is just a support for the weak, and can not accept there own faith, and cant accept the fact that when they die ... it over nothing more then eternal sleep. Thats just my whole view on everthing such as religion other than its all bullshit in many cases. well i am hungry and need food, im outy