I haven been on here in a while just cuz shits been happenign and ive just been fucking up and shit... well exparimenting like last friday i did coke... it was kinda fuked up i prolly shouldnt have touched it but i just did cuz i was trying new things .... i dont rlly regret it just cuz it was actually a fun night i admit but i will not do it again just so that i dont become an addict its not worth it the high doesnt last long enough and its way to much of a high risk i dont care what ppl think of me they can all go and fuk thme selves... alot of ppl use to hang with i rather despise now. Alot of ppl have just changed... i dont rlly care cuz i hated most of them from the start anyway.. its not my fuult my actual friends hang around them... not for long im pretty sure i just havea felling this year is just gonna be alot of bullshit drama thats all high school turns out to be... other than drama school is like the blacket market it just gets u into more trpuble rather than preventing it. its not like i mind at all its kind interesting at times. but meh i was thinking about prom and all i dont no who im going with if i even decide to go... im definitly gonna go on sumthing but i havnet decided what yet... maybe sumthing like mushrooms or like just a bunch of dope and booze . not thgat i care as long as im trashed ... those are the only memories i will ever charish