If i get my way this will be my last year of school. the only reason i went before was to be with friends now i feel as if, i dont really need to be around them, they are more about themselves. As of now i really dont care as of who i no in the future cuz all they care about is otherz, who really dont give a shit about them, there ubsessed with them, and they dont even no it yet, i have noticed so many things that go on. Majority of them are going to get hurt yet still not to realize it. I already am in many wayz, this has to do with other things. i no i have many problems like at 2am this morning when i was going to end it all, but where would that put me? I have decided to just live life as heartless as could be, so far it has left me no were but hurt. And this one crush i have had lately i am slowly killing it cuz it will never be and i no that, it probibly could be if i was not such a wuss and expressed mysleves to them, but they are just chasing things that wont be, cuz they are so fixeated with that person, and it will never be, and cuz they wont realize that we will never be. But i shall move on in life and put the end to my search of love, for about ever