Listening to: 12 stones - 3 leaf loser
Feeling: alive
when i first started i thought i could stop,
but i became addicted,
i needed to cut, to bleed,
to feel better for that split second,
to forget about my terrible life,
but it only helped for a little while,
then i would have to cut again for the same effect,
i started cutting more and more,
until i had no uncut skin on my arm,
so i moved to my stomach,
then my legs,
then anywhere that could be covered.
it became an everyday thing,
i was addicted to the pain,
soon i came to realize,
that cutting was not only hurting myself,
but hurting my loved ones as well,
so i wanted to stop,
i tried to stop,
but it wasn't that easy,
it took an extremely long time for me to stop,
but i learned how to express my feelings,
how to talk to people
and how to cry
all because there was someone out there,
who truely cared about me
and wanted what was best for me
it really hurts to look at my body and remember,
all the pain i put myself through,
because i was misunderstood
sexually abused
physically, mentally, and emotionally abused.
for awhile after i stopped
some people called me weak
because i had to cut instead of cry
but cutting was not a weakness
it made me stronger
and helped me become the person i am today.
coment plzz
well atleast she'll try
i read quite a few, and i honestly don't like them much. i think it has way too much of the teen angst shit going on, with the sappy mainstream words. i could go on a music site for kids [taborama for example], and find 32423423 writings like yours.
but, y'know, whatever.
it's alright.
if this is how you like to write, then gopher it. i guess i just write way differently from a lot of people.
keep it up, and try different things.
That's all there is to it!
Wow you always change your diary. I looks even better. I like it.
what's not to know?
and you've commented a lot of diaries.
including mine.
when you leave comments on peoples' diaries asking them to comment on yours...do you even read their diaries?
and if not, why do you expect them to read yours?
♥
-Lex
-lex