I feel weird today, like unattached to my body. Maybe it's the sleep thing, I dunno. I listening to "Back to Good" by Matchbox 20 it always makes me sad. "Well everyone here has shades of shame. Looking inside we're the same and we are all grown now yeah, and we don't know how to get it back to good." Ahhh. I'll write more later. Here's more... Carol just called. We aren't leaving until tomorrow morning. Thank God. I'm too tired to get dressed today. I will use my motto in this situation: "Fuck it." I love the way that just rolls off my tongue. I'm going to end up living in my dad's basement. Still More... It's raining today. Overcast and wet and I looked out the window and rabbits were just running around through the flowers. It reminded me of something you'd see on a Hallmark movie. And nothing in my life is like a Hallmark movie nor would I want it to be. All love and mush and tears and mother's hugging their daughters.