I'm a Liar

by valerie102
Feeling: despondent
My dad is getting back together with his on-again-off-again girlfriend. I first met her when I was 13. While I love her dearly I can't stand how my dad gets when he's with her. It's like her kids are his kids and Jhonna and I don't exist. Eh. Bitching and moaning won't help that. I'm 19 now I don't need him breathing down my back all the time anyway. I was up till 3 last night. I don't know what I'm saying in this entry. I've typed and erased more than I've kept. My mind is all topsy-turvy. I keep remembering things I've lied about. Guilt. I used to be quite the liar. I loved to lie about supid stuff that didn't even matter. Like I'd say that there was a fight at school when there wasn't or that we had pizza when we really had turkey. Now I think that I am overly honest to comensate. It doesn't equal out. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Later on that same day... I just got back from PE. I have a renewed love for wiffle ball. My sister and I were 10 times better than most of the jocks. Yay! I scored 4 points and Jhonna got 2. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- This Is a Members-Only Area The story of my life. I just keep staring at that. Members-Only. Members-Only. Yesterday, I turned on the printer in the computer lab and it started printing all these pages out that weren't mine. No one was in there so I just took them and I read some of them last night. It's weird how much you can know about someone just by reading an assigned essay. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Even later that same day... I don't know why I'm disapointed. My dad lied to me about calling and his intentions. This morning I went from extremely despondent to elated and now just basic hopelessness. Rollercoastering it like usual. Sidenote: This is a picture from my high school. It looks like a prison.
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I know what you mean about the honesty thing. There's just a thin line between white lies and real lies. lies themselves are just hard to avoid.
i like your diary. O_o maddie
[Anonymous]
your diary is pretty.

and beyond that... something similar, v. similar to that has happened to me. i was in this man.s office waiting to be lectured on responsibility and yada yada [he was my computer teacher, an ex-cop] and one of his students essays had printed out. since i was the only person in there i thought it was mine and i looked at the name on it, the name of this kid i had a major crush on, anyway i read it. it.s weird how you can
learn so much about someone from a school paper.

hmm, anyway. sorry for my rambling. i don.t even know you and here i am talking on and on. sorry.

hope you have a wonderful day.
hmm, it.s funny we haven.t come accross each other earlier cos we have some similar friends... well, actually, nevermind. just one. being nick [and his multiple diaries-hehe].
yeh would be neat if you could figure out who wrote that.
always interesting.
anyway love, hope you have a wonderful day.
I do like scoring and pointing quite abit.

And hey, hang on to that paper. If it's any good, maybe you'll get lucky and be assigned the same assignment.

Heh. I just types 'ass' twice. Well, three now.

Go me.
Another hour in the computer lab working hard on 'school work', huh?

And high school is a prison. Well, unless your mom is the head secretary there like mine was, so you have free access to off-campus passes. Then it's pretty much a bar with teachers.
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Haha. We can have an ugly picture party. It'll be sweet. I'll bring my best side. That side being when I am behind the camera.
Hey darling. Just wanted to note how freaky your school was. I'm so glad I stuck with Indy. Your school would have given me nightmares for the rest of my fucking life.! =) love ya
[Anonymous]
* Big Bear Hug * I missed you! I havn't forgotten. :P Anyway, there is NOTHING wrong with telling the truth. I think all those people who place high value on being able to lie arew pathetic. Good job on being truthful!! ;)
[Anonymous]
hey, its no bother. after youve uploaded whatever you want as your background pic into the image manager, just rename it as my_background.jpg or .gif, depending upon which type of file it is, obviously.

have a good night. hope i helped a bit.
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[Anonymous]
I hope things are going well for you. I dont see you on yahoo anymore, I feel out of the loop, not that I was much in the loop but I miss ya. May the road rise up and meet your feet, the sun be always at your back, and the wind in your face...
[Anonymous]
hey

missed the ladies' soccer final; just caught the highlights. looked like an awesome, awesome game, though! How many channels did you guys have for the games? SA private tv went berserk and had 8 dedicated olympics channels - quite a whack. Bearing in mind the public tv only has 3 normal daily channels, cleverly called SABC 1, 2 and 3...

Your high school does have a certain Alcatrazzy look about it, that's for damn sure!