I'm really very tired of this. I will not feel bad about being me. If someone doesn't like it they can blow it out their blow-hole. I will not spend every second of my life defending who I am or what I believe in. I will not. I know that respect is something you earn so I'm going to earn it. How? By standing up for myself. By doing something for the world. By being me. Everything is going to catch up. I'm just a little ahead of the schedule. And I'm stretching myself a little thin emotionally. And I always do so it's okay for me. It's a feeling that I know. That I'm used to and even welcome. I long ago realized that my life is not like everyone else's. And I have a love/hate relationship with my neurosis. It's just part of me. When I find a guy who deserves my time I'll share all of this and maybe he'll find it cute and maybe he'll run. Whatever happens it won't matter.