There are certain people who always make me happy. Others could make me happy but I depend on them too much. Some would make me happy if they weren't the ones making me sad. that's something i found in someone's xanga and i liked it so i thought i'd steal it and put it in here. it's almost like a summary of what's going on in my head right now. here's more though... + i need to stop caring so much. + i need to stop thinking so much. + i need to stop hating a certain someone. + i need to stop hating myself. + i need to stop being so lazy all the time. + i need to start caring more about the ones who actually care about me. + and stop caring so much for the ones who DON'T care as much about me! + i need to get out of this town and go somewhere far away forever. + i need to stop thinking about how things COULD be. + and start thinking about how things SHOULD be. + i need to be the perfect friend. + and at the same time, know that i can't be. + i need to start writing again. + i need to stop holding on to things that aren’t worth holding on to. + i need to stop hoping that people will change when i know they won't. + i need to start reading my bible again. + i need to stop leaning on other people and start leaning more on God. + i need to stop being so afraid to make mistakes. + i need to stop being so afraid of relationships. + i need to change. + i need to stop letting everything get me down. + i need to stop letting YOU bring me down. + i need to learn to let go. + even if that means letting YOU go. + i need to except myself and know that i'm a pretty decent person. + i need to stop letting YOU make me think i'm a bad friend. + i need to stop hurting braden so much. + i need to let sara and megan be there. + i need to listen to them. + about everything. + i need to stop pretending that things are okay, when they're not. + i need to stop pretending that what you're DOING to me is okay. + i need to be a better me. + in all the ways possible.