hmmm what the heck is "frumpy" suppose to mean?? anyhow, let's just say school was very retarded today!! i didn't see lauren all day because she was in the library taking a test for ap english. and so that really sucked!! especially since i wrote her and didn't get the chance to give it to her. but anyhow, in biology we were watching a movie, and i swear NO ONE was watching it..so it wasn't just me. but mr miller picked me, out of the entire class, and made me sit beside him all period because i wasn't freaking "watching the wonderful movie." gosh, i'm sorry but i really do NOT like him at all. he ALWAYS picks ME to be mean to, almost everyday and it makes me so mad. ughhhhh!!! he doesn't know HOW to freaking be nice! okay, now that i've said that, on with something else. i'm worried about tara. i'm trying my hardest to get her to come with lauren and i to youth group wednesday but she won't. she doesn't think she's the "church type" but i think she's just scared. dude, there is NOT a specific "type" of church person!!! God excepts everyone. and i wish she knew that. i want her to come. she reallllly needs to. but i don't know what to do. i had therapy tonight from 4-5:30 and it went pretty well. i always hate monday's because it seems like my knee hurts a lot worse. probably because i have all weekend off and normally i don't do my excercises like i'm suppose to..so i guess it's all my fault :-) but i bent it 130 degrees today!! yayyyy!! my "normal" knee bends 148 degress so i'm almost there :-) i'm excited. and joe has been having me do harder excercises and stuff the past few times i've gone. so i'm moving up..yay!!! i just want to have surgery, recover and then be done with this crap!! NOW! i hate it. but it does give me something to do..i must admit!! i don't have a life. after therapy, i came home and saw that MY jamie had left me a bizillion messages on my computer telling me to come to bible study at 7:00 so i told my dad and he brought me. yay!!! it was only jamie, melody, mary-ellen (our youth pastor) and i though. but oh well it was still very fun. as always. and we prayed for tara a lot because i told them that we needed to. i talked to lauren online a little bit ago. yay!!! we talked about a bunch of things :-) and i also talked to my love, sara beth. she's wonderful!! ohhh and miss allie wallis :-) yay!!! and jarrod u. i haven't talked to him forever so it was pretty cool. he's verry nice. wow i really miss braden right now :-( i want him here very badly. i wish he could read my mind, so he'd know that i DO miss him. half the time he doesn't believe me when i tell him that i do :-( i love him! yayyyy i can't wait until wednesday!! tonight lauren told me that she is DEFINITELY coming to youth group with me. i just hope that it's a good lesson, that we have fun, and that everyone's there like last week. there are like 5 bizillion people in our youth group but a lot of people have had to work or something lately..so we haven't all been there. i want it to be perfect though..for lauren!! i want her to like it a lot so she wants to come back. she's been before, but that was forever ago..like the beginning of this year :-( and i just want her to have fun. gosh..i can't wait!! you have NO idea!! i'm very, extremely excited!!!