welp, today was one of the last days of school for tara, and i was really upset all day :-( like, realllly upset. you have no idea! i even wrote her something last night. telling her how awesome i think she is, how much she means to me, how much i'm going to miss her, and different stuff like that. the day went pretty fast though. lauren came to lunch with me today, the first day all week because she's been busy decorating for prom and stuff. so i was happy about that. i went with her to take pictures of the gym and stuff :-) it honestly looks better than i thought it would. and the girls bathroom looks absolutely gorgeous! i'm worried about tara at prom. i just have a feeling that she's going to go get drunk afterwards or something. and i'm also pretty sure that she's going to have sex with travis, but what's new? i don't know. i'm just worried about her..and lauren too. i trust lauren a lot more though. and i know that she probably won't go drink afterwards, or at least i hope to God that she doesn't..but i don't trust tara. braden called today and we almost broke up. he's upset because he says that he doesn't understand why i haven't really been talking to him about anything lately. he thinks i've distanced myself from him, but i have from everyone, so yeah. i guess he wants to be therefor me, but i don't really want to let him be. sorry, but no. sara wasn't at school today..bitch!! i missed her a lot though :-) hmmm what else?!?! i didn't go to therapy tonight because i didn't feel like it at all. around 5:30 though i went to the church for some dinner thing they had..and it was very yummy! you missed out jonathan :-) afterwards i went with bethany and jamie to the store and we got some ice cream, then went back to mary ellen's and waited on melody to get there. then around 9 we all watched a movie. i got home around 11 and got online since jonathan was getting on. i also talked to lauren, whom i love!! it's 2:30 in the morning and i am STILL on here talking to jonathan while i write this. wow!! we've talked for like 3 hours. yayyyy sara just signed on. god i missed her so much today!! tomorrow jonathan and i are going to the mall from like 1-4:30..since he has to work at 5:30 :-( we'll have fun though. yay! i'm excited. alright well im like dead tired :-( i can't even really think about what to write in this, i know there's something that happened today that i'm forgetting to put in here and it's kind of bugging me, but oh well..i'm too tired to think.