please tell me what the hell i did to you because for the past week or so i've tried so hard to figure it out, but i can't. probably because i didn't do ANYTHING wrong! oh wait, the only thing that i can think of is that maybe i cared too much!! wow, i'm sooo sorry! ya see, that was my first mistake! why is it so hard for you to just be there? to actually be a good friend. at least. that's all i asked!! for you to just be there. as a friend..but you couldn't even do that!! you hurt me ALL the time, but i was still always there for you when you needed me!! i ask myself all the time why i didn't just give up on you a long time ago. i guess maybe i always thought you'd change. that one day you'd be there..and stop hurting me. maybe if i would have given up on you earlier in our friendship, when i should have, it would have been easier..because now i'm having the hardest time EVER!! i'm constantly wondering what happened with us..why you could never be there..why i tried for so long..if you miss me even half as much as i miss you..or if you're starting to realize that you've lost me and might not get me back. please tell me that our friendship meant something! because it meant everything to me, and maybe that was my problem. i never should have let you become so important to me!! so maybe all of this is my fault. how i'm feeling. but because of you i'm finding myself unable to trust anyone anymore. i'm shutting absolutely everybody out now. you've made me too scared to let someone else in. i don't want to give anymore else the chance to hurt me again..like you did, so easily. i made that mistake once, and i've promised myself that i WON'T make it again! ever.