wow, i have wayyy too much to say. first off, my day went pretty good. better than i thought it would be. so yay! finals are coming up next week though, so this week definitely = some major studying :-( i hate finals. they should die! tomorrow i'm suppose to wear my hair down for tara and all my lovely seniors in my math class, because it'll be their last day in there..forever! i'm going to cry, i'm almost positive i will. maybe not in front of all of them, but i know for sure that i will sometime before or after math. lauren came to lunch today and it made me very happy. while i was getting food though she let like a million people look at her prom pictures before me, so i almost didn't get to see them. yeah, i was kind of upset, and she started to get upset too. i eventually got to see them though, and she was absolutely gorgeous :-) i couldn't even tell you! gosh, i love her so much! i wish, more than anything, that i could have been there to see her in person. i also got to see sara's pictures during lunch too and she was soooo beautiful! oh my gosh, i can't even describe how absolutely gorgeous she looked :-) all the pictures of her and clay were beautiful! i loved them so much! i would do anything to have what the two of them have. anything! sara, being the retard that she is, spilled pop, that clay had brought back, alllll over herself, the table and the floor. it was hilarous! allie and i couldn't believe it and we just sat there for a second, then i was like, "okay i will go get her some napkins!" then allie was like, "yeah, me too." so we both went up there and got like a million, then came back and cleaned alll of it up for her. i got all of it off the table, then allie went and got the mop and cleaned up the floor. yesss, we definitely love sara enough to do this for her :-) but it was soo funny! and the whole time lauren was just sitting there, like she didn't know what to do. and i felt bad for just leaving her there, but yeah, i wanted to help my lovely sara! in english we started watching ALIVE, even though i don't think anyone's done reading the book yet. yes, miss dye is dumb! but watching a movie's better than doing work, even though the movie's not the best. after school i met jonathan at his locker, then we walked up to the fourth floor, and as we were walking towards the door to get out to the parking lot we noticed people running with jackets and stuff over their heads and i was like, "ummm, jonathan, is it raining?" and he was like, "looks like it" and we just looked at eachother and he gave me his sweatshirt to put over my head :-) when we got outside it was down pouring. like hardcore. it was so terrible. the rain drops were like hail or something..and it was soo funny! will, one of jonathan's friends from our youth group, had been standing out by jonathan's car the whole time and jonathan and i saw him and started running out there so we could let him in the car. haha. we felt kind of bad, but oh well. when we got in the car him and i just looked at eachother and we laughed forever about the rain and how soaked we were. half of my pant legs were soaked, not kidding. and my flip flops were totally soaked. we were only out there like a minute and his whole sweat shirt felt like i just went and dropped it in a bucket of water or something. it was bad. anyways, he dropped me off at my house and i got online for a little bit. then i ate dinner with my parents and went to bible study at mary ellens. it was mary ellen, melody, nicole best, bethany, kim and i. we had fun. jonathan was there too, but him and will were upstairs just hanging out. i couldn't concentrate at all on what we were doing. then jonathan came downstairs because he was going to leave but he was blocked in by melody's car, so he just went back upstairs and waited til we were done. after that i couldn't concentrate at all. like, i kept thinking about him and stuff. i can't even explain it. i kept trying to follow what everyone else was talking about but my mind wondered, every two seconds, and it wouldn't stop. so finally bible study was over, and melody left, so jonathan came back down and talked for a few minutes, then left. it's now 11:00 and i just stopped talking to him a little bit ago. i didn't want to talk that much because megan scared me when she said that i could get tired of him or something. and i don't want that to happen. i told him what megan had said and he was like, "i could never get tired of you" and that made me very happy :-) he's really amazing. like, i've known him for awhile, and we've been friends because of youth group and stuff..but now it's different. i have feelings for him, and he makes me smile. i actually look forward to seeing him. i don't know. i hope something happens between us, because i really want it to. i know that it will though, eventually. we're trying to take it slow, since i just broke up with braden. but yeah. okay that's about it. later. p.s. jonathan looked very cute at mary ellen's tonight. i love when he smiles. it's the cutest thing in the world, and you can't help but smile whenever he does :-) i like talking to him a lot too. yay!