im actually beginning to believe in this. i have faith that everything will get better. i do believe that i have changed in some ways. but i really cant help it. my life is completely different from that way it was a year ago. and i need to adapt. if i dont, then i can never move on with my life. i need to change with my surroundings. im not proud of everything i have done, but im also not going to beat myself up over it. hating myself or anyone else will not help anything. i forgive everyone and i forgive myself. im on my way.