i was having an alright day today. my favorite part was simply grocery shopping with my mom and sister. i was just content. i became really frustrated at one point. sometimes i feel like knowing someone so well almost makes me impatient when they are upset over something. i feel horrible about it, but honestly, today one little thing went wrong and it seemed like the end of the world! after about twenty minutes of trying to ease him and tell him everything is going to be just fine, i just got fed up with all of his outlandish thoughts. he was simply reading too much into everything, and i don't really think that that is a subjective statement. maybe i am just messed up. things are good, they turn bad, they turn amazing, and then they are awkward. every relationship is different and i will not let anybody tell me that we are going to fail, because i am loving him all the time, and i know that it's not going to ruin us. i hate that the littlest things depress him though. i do just think it's all part of a bigger picture, but i'm not a therapist, and i try, but i fail. and i just wish i could make him feel better about his life. or really have the positive influence he says i have. i hate that i can't do it. i hate it. but i love him nonetheless :]