Inside the holding cell that is myself

Listening to: Bright Eyes
Feeling: hollow
This is yesterday's entry, notice how I changed the date. Sit diary was not working right, so I saved the entry on my computer. Here it is. I am mad now. First sitdiary doesn't work all day, then I lose the entry I just wrote. So this means instead of the great entry I just wrote, I'll have to rewrite it when I don't feel like it again. Ahh well. I went to the library yesterday and renewed Lestat, then checked out books I have read upwards of three times because the library did not have Away Laughing on a Fast Camel or any other interesting book I haven't read yet. Then we went shopping at Goody's again (erlack!) and I have went up another pant size. Just wonderful. We then went to baskin robbins and I got a cappuccino blast. Great idea for a girl trying to lose weight, right? Today I stayed home. Quite boring. I took a hot bath with a lavender bath fizz. I almost passed out in the tub because it was so hot, but it smelled good and I wanted to just sit there for as long as physically possible. I get my best inspiration in dangerously hot water it appears. My tub has a little seat-type ledge in it so I got up there and put my feet in the water and just leaned back. After a while I couldn't stand the heat anymore so I got out and listened to Bright Eyes. My music, especially Bright Eyes and AFI, makes me feel something, instead of the nothingness I always have.
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I hate how it logs you out after being on for so long. If you type up entries, you should copy and paste it and then save it to a word document. I do it since I cannot find myself to type short entries anymore. Just words to keep the frustration level down. ^.^ I thank you for saying such about my pictures, I really loove my hair like that, even if people say differently. I luff my kitty, how many do you have? Lovely book is The Vampire Lestat.
Oy. You and myself are more alike in ways that I never thought possible for someone. The comment you left about devil worshipping, I would add on but it really is what I have been saying to myself and others many times. Hah, yes lets save up money so we can go get our nails and toes done! EVERY WEEK! And then comment on each other's nails and how pretty they look. Or skirts where you hear "You look SO cute today!" -bounces head- No way..
-Armand
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Did not mean to sign that anonymous, though signing Armand would pretty much tell one who it was signed by anyway. ^.^ I love hot baths, I put it as hot as it could get one and just put a finger in there and sadly I enjoyed the burning sensation that it left on my finger. Those cappuchino blasts are hella good though. Music is life and no one can put it other way than that. Try and have grreat days ahead, Erika.
I leave on Friday, six days without a computer I hope I can survive without the internet. Love always and forever.
-Armand
Ahaha. I think most of my family would actually praise me for becoming "the girl that I was born as." Hah, I made myself laugh after going back and reading it. I must thank the ever so *lovely* girls in my class for those examples though. At least your grandmother means it the nice way, I am mocked because they point them out and are like "You like him Jess? He has chains like you!" -_-
-Armand who finds you even MORE cool to have 8 cats.