i have come to the conclusion...that i cant help certain people. i try so hard to believe it will be alright... i love them so much. i cant stand strife...i try to resolve things. i just ..dont help. and it hurts. i hate being manipulated. aaron does it well. i cant stand my mother being disrepected and talked to like she's dirt. i cant stand being told i "dont know anything". when i'm the one who stands back and watches the disillusion. it's too much sometimes and i cant live being stressed like this. just another sob story. everythings fine untill this kindof thing happens. i cant even explain.....i hate to say it. but aaron and sometimes mick..just the things they say and do.. drains me. my eyes are heavy.. i think im going to go listen to the benjamen gate