I'm not so cheery anymore... I read Maddie's diary and I felt such saddness for anyone who seems lost..not only for (you) but anyone else who fells that way.. and myself. there's times when I feel like the whole world is against me and no one understands..no one can even begin to comprehend what i'm feeling inside. Beyond anyone's mind's capacity... And it's so deep inside of me I begin to loose all i thought i knew..and I cant comprehend. and i dont remember what im trying to say. and it's gone. but i realize there are those who feel exactly what i'm feeling in my core... even though i cant explain. like we are a line of stringed popcorn being pulled ..and pulled. i dont know where im going with this. i just feel....like im being pulled. like my stomach spilled out on my floor and i'm trying to pick it all up but the more I strain to get everything, the more falls out and it's an endless battle... Why do we feel this... I had a good day today..... and i'm not depressed.... but i can feel it.