______________________________________________ "This is the air I breathe... This is the air I breathe... Your holy pressence...living..in me. This is my daily bread. This is my daily bread. Your very word..spoken to me. And I...I'm desperate for you. And I...I'm lost without you." ______________________________________________ I love this song...makes me want to cry. Some might not understand how someone could feel that way because they dont see God working in their own lives..so it's all fabricated in our minds.. I'v never cried so much from anything..besides..Will. Just the thought of someone going through...unimaginal pain for me. What makes me so special? What makes US so special? And then he's turned away like a disease. I spent about an hour re-doing Jake's diary [jakebryant]. He just told me, "Do what ever you want!" So I picked out all the pictures on my own and the colors. I hope he likes it. I feel so calm right now, it's so nice. And I know why. Anyways.. Last night I dreamt I got in a fight with someone at my old friend's house. *Courtney R.I.P* I tore her apart. We small people ..we fight till the death BECAUSE we are small. We just keep going and going and going *energizer bunny drum*. She was talking shit about me..I was calm and tried to talk about it..and she was like, "well..lets take it to another room.." So, we were walking down the hallway..and she jumped me. But I knew she was going to do it.. SO I flipped her sideways on my back and rammed her into the wall..like..10 times..and then dropped her. Then I got on top of her. I never punched her... I kicked her. Then dug my nails into her legs all over. And then she just layed there and I left to get all my shit together. That took me the whole night.. Finally as the sun was coming up, I started walking home, (to the house I moved out of like..8 years ago..and have dreams about all the time.) Erica and Morganna were sitting outside of Courtney's house on the car. Erica said Domonique (the one who's ass got kicked) was gonna kick my ass because I kicked HER ass..haha..so I flipped Erica off.. Then Morganna came at me thinking I flipped HER off. I was like "fuCKin A! Grow up!" haha.. Then I finally got home. We were in the middle of actually Moving BACK into my old house, and the people who lived there before left a bunch of stuff behind, including a picture of a girl on the mantle. So I went to touch the picture.. There were words in it and they moved around her face like they were in water.... And She looked straight at me.