im sitting here...cold. it's 1:24 a.m. and i have nothing else better to do than be here. i should be doing my work actually. procrastinating as usual. the first week of a new school year or semester is just like a high. your on top of things for a little but then it all goes down hill. well not so much downhill ..yet... i havnt missed an assignment. i just wait untill the last minute and run myself ragged. I'v been thinkin about a few little things...or people. I can't stand people who lie or shut you out for no reason...or get pissy over petty fuckin things. they're all lame. maybe i'm wrong about it all. eh. ohwell .. i didnt get to see the movie tonight. i knew i wouldnt beable to anyway but I still looked forward to it. i told my mom the only thing i dont like about living here is not being close to people. i wish i had my friends living near me and i could hang out again. it used to be me, danielle, and mystie everyday walking to eachother's house. hell i could walk to the store down the block for some doritos. now that my brother screwed everything up for me i have to depend on other people for things. i hate being dependent. i feel like i just wanna do this shit myself. but i'm incapable. Shannon and everyone has been so great though. I dont know what my mom and I would do without them. ....once you loose something for even the 3rd time...you realize what you had and appreciate it. i know it's only a stupid thing on wheels with a motor and air conditioning..but ya know, it's a needed thing to get the shit done. i saw will 2 days ago. i felt like my stomache dropped in my ass. at least i was in a different car and he probably didnt recognize me. hahaha. kyle used to be best friends with him. why do i have to like guys that were/are closely associated with him?? it's crazy. my knee's hurt. okay. enough with my drag entry. chow