John Mayer's lips are sooo ....there isn't a word to describe! When I get famous, and if he's single and I'm single I will marry him. He can't say no. If I look at him anymore I might have an orgasm. And he's like...Right ova there ----> lahly numbchuks ha ha. Jimmy flashed me last night. Even though I said, "HonestlY!? I dont wanna see your dick. I cant stop you so whatever. Do what you want to." So he did it anyway. I think that's what made me think of him in a bad light for a little while. I bitched him out cause I thought he had a girlfriend, and if he said she was 'awesome' and 'great' obviously he didn't care about her if he thought flashing someone else was just plain fun. But he's single.. and I dont feel so bad. THen I told him "sorry that I'm such a bitch/prude..but thats me *shrugs*" LMAO. Then we talked for 3 more hours. ONline and on the phone (untill it died). HE actually opened up to me for the first time about how he really feels about me and him now and then. The one thing I want to know and didn't ask him is if he loved me. I found out he felt the same way as I did back then..which is awesome. I said a little while ago that I wasn't going to worry about him/this situation/issue and wait for him to bring it up. And he did. So that's another sign. When I was 13 God told me he was the one. More and more things are making me think that. But why does this happen right when I want to be with someone else. TYler. ANd the confusing thing is.. I want to be with Tyler, but I dont see a real future with him. I see a future with Jim, but I dont want to be with him right now. It's like a yin yang and I'm the line in the middle. And I know the second half of this yin yang is the practical one. The right one. But I dont want to accept it. Am I scared? Do I really want to be with Jim? Or do I really want to be with Tyler? I guess I know the answers but I dont want to hurt anyone. But why would it hurt anyone.. nothing is going on with anyone/anything. I dont care right now. I'm inlove with John Mayer. Can't I have him, please? lahly numbchuks _____________________________________________ goodbye = sarah, huggable = me. ~::huggable::~ says: i just pictured in my head the way my mom looked when she coughed and sneezed at the same time ~::huggable::~ says: and laffed afterwards ~*Goodbye*~ says: lmao ~*Goodbye *~ says: flaffing my fass on ~*Goodbye *~ says: haha ~::huggable::~ says: hahaha ~::huggable::~ says: *fluuuuuuuuuuuupe!* (sound effects for a ass suddnely being laffed back on) ~*Goodbye *~ says: 20 years from now imma call you and say 'im so flaffing my fass on right now' lolol ~::huggable::~ says: haha ---------------------------------------------- :(.. fucks. people who are hungry for nothing though they want something.. I'm sick of people complaining how bad their life is when really.. it's not. Some are dieing of starvation, drinking out of the same water they shit in, rapped just becasue someone has peice of paper that says their vagina is property. We have bad days and some really shitty days most of us. When you take bad things and focus on ONly them, you forget about he good facets of life. You loose them. why do you do that? We have the power to change the future by doing something different in the present. Grow up and get a grip. ---------------------------------------------- anyways. that was my little rant for the day. i think : while the tea is warming, i'll go and get the milk so by the time the tea is done the milk will be out so i wont waste time by taking the tea out...then walking to the fridge to get the milk. so i walk to the fridge and get the milk. then the tea is done. i look around for the milk and don't see it. i think : wow. i just thought about saving time by getting the milk while the tea was in the microwave and i didnt do it even though i thought about doing it the whole time. so i walk to the fridge, open the door only to see the milk isnt there. i look on the over the breakfast nook and see that the milk is sitting plainly on the counter. im tired. and im sick of killing moths on my computer screen.