i talked to tyler tonight and he suggested coming up here this weekend for his birthday. we both got our hopes up and if my mom wasnt so fucking overprotective it could have worked out. maybe it was for the best? this summer is still a big possiblity though. and it would be more fun and less stressfull. i trust him. that probably doesnt mean much but i know it does to him. we are friends. and if it didnt work out as more.. i know we would still be friends. sarah doesnt really like him. and i hate feeling like i have to defend her to him and him to her. it makes me feel like shit. tyler didnt tell me but i know he thinks it's juvenile, and i know sarah is just looking out for me. i guess now im just going to have to find out for myself. i will have to take a risk for once in my life. im tired as hell so i'll "see" you all later. leave a comment all you comment whores.