Dear Diary, So today wasn't TERRIBLY awful. Well, except for the constant mysterious stomach ache. But I only had to babysit for like, hmm, two hours. SUCH a difference! Kids are so much stress, but I love them anyway! Brr... Why do we always have the AC on? It's FALL for heaven's sake! ...Oh. We don't have it on. tee hee. But it's still cold! Hmm... Other news? Hmm. Well, the one bright spot in my day was defintely Nathan. When he's not hungry or tired or wet, I can make him smile and laugh so much!!! There is something so confidence-building to see a baby grin every time he sees you... So our house is supposed to be all ready to move in on October 17th. I HIGHLY doubt that. I'm guessing it's possible we'll start moving in the 20th or 21st, but not before that. It's still pretty soon, though! Wow... Sadness... I've been concentrating so much on getting out of this apartment, I hadn't realized that when we move to our new house, we'll also be moving into a new ward... ACK! HOW DO THEY EXPECT ME TO LEAVE HYDE PARK 2ND WARD??? That is sooo scary. I'll be leaving all my friends for strangers... When I sit in sacrament meeting, I won't be able to tell at least two personal stories about every single family and/or person in the ward... YIKES!!! New questions, new leaders, new bishopric, new teachers, new beehives, mia maids, and LAURLES. Oh my heck! That is SCARY. My daddy's home from the East Coast! Yay! Finally! ...He still didn't bring me a present though! I ask him every time he comes home; it's kinda like a long-running joke. If he ever does bring something back for me from a business trip (and pencils do NOT count!), I think I'll faint with shock! A bit of sorta good news before I start in with the sincerly depressing/aggrivating stuff: I'm losing weight! Not a lot, and not fast, but still! I got a new med about a week ago that is supposed to help me focus better. One of the side effects is a decrease in appetite... Yay! --I know, kind of shallow of me (okay, really shallow), but it's something to be happy about. These days I take what I can get. WHICH brings me to Dumb Guys and Backstabbing Girls... Have you ever been stabbed in the back? It's a MOST unpleasent sensation. My heart jumped with shock, shuddered with disbelief, and then sank with disappointment. I didn't think I cared that much, but I felt like the one person who understood had just given me a hug--and then pulled back and slapped me. (I am REALLY into the whole metaphor thing tonight!) Maybe it's not as big a deal as I'm making it out to be, but right now, I sure feel like it is. All the things she's ever said to me suddenly don't mean as much anymore... Anyway. I'm sure she didn't mean it personally; she just needed some help/advice... Although why she couldn't have talked to me... Yeah... Right now all the stuff she said about being in it together and needing me and etc. seems quite a load of fresh manure... And that's just the girl part! As for the guy... Well, wouldn't you be upset if someone who told you just three days ago that he wanted to be "friends for a long time" totally ignored you? I mean, it's not like I want him to obsess over me. But a phone call, an email, or even a ten minute MSN conversation would be nice! ...Especially when he apparently has so much time to give to other people... I just wish he'd give me SOMETHING to let me know that he still cares about how I am. I told the guy every deep dark secret I have (okay, they're not really secrets, but not many people know about them), and then he acts like it's no big deal... Like I'M no big deal... No one important... Nothing special... Well! That effectively turned a not-so-good day into a horrible one... I just finished fighting with my mom about two hours ago... Sigh... CASSIE COMES HOME TOMORROW! THANK GOODNESS! Although when she sees me, she might wish she had stayed in St. George--I have SO much to whine to her about! Well, hopefully she'll grin and bear it. I love that girl. She'll always be my shoulder to cry on... And right now, I need two! Love, Lisa Ann