Dear Diary, It's happening. I can feel it... everything's falling apart again. I don't want to fall again... Not a happy day. There were highlights, however. I always like attempt optimisim and write the good stuff. So. I was dreading Art, but it didn't turn out as badly as I thought it would. Mainly thanks to Jeremy giving me some pointers... and me starting the project over. That helped. Um... Oh, then after school I found out that Jeremy's birthday was Friday. So Kadee and I made him cookies. That was fun. And of course, Kadee and I watched the OC. I love it. Mainly... because it provides such a great escape from life. Which I desperately need. The rest of the day was not good. I was pretty... unhappy for the most part. And surprisingly... quite a few people asked me if I was doing okay. I must have looked really unhappy. Which I guess I was. But it's not like I told them that. I'm terrible at sharing that kind of stuff. I just don't want to be seen as some freaky gloomy girl, I guess... Anyway. I do appreciate it when people ask how I am... Especially when they don't believe me when I say I'm fine. lol I walked away from Cassie at lunch today... I really need to talk to her... It can't go on like this much longer. Okay, the two hardest things about this new tri: Not very many friends in my classes, and more/harder classes. My mom and I talked tonight. About how I've been feeling... It felt good, to talk. We talked about a couple options, if things get worse. But right now... I'll just hope and pray that things get better. Love, Lisa Ann