Dear Diary, Woke up this morning for early mornings... ended up just taking Kadee and coming home. (Which was okay, because it turns out we really didn't have EM). Then I slept until ten a.m. I didn't quite mean to do that. I only meant to skip 1st and 2nd hour, but I missed 3rd as well. I got there for 4th to take my Psych test, which I got 100% on. That was awesome. I just didn't want to go to school. After school Kadee and I watched the OC... Then we went to my YW's, which she admits is boring and the people aren't very nice. Oh, and happy half-birthday to me! I am seventeen and a half. Half-birthdays used to be a big deal to me since my birthday was during the summer. Kadee and I decided to go celebrate. Eventually we went to go get ice-cream. We had to hurry though because Kadee (and I) had to babysit the kids. Really all we did was put them to sleep and then sit on the couch and talk. We had a really nice long talk. I love that girl so much. She is so freaking amazing. Her life has been so different from mine, and yet, in someways she is much better than I am. The more I get to know her, the more I think... how can you be so... amazing. She made me realize how lucky I am. I really have had a great life. Wonderful, loving parents, stable family and home, strong positive influence of religion. I really was blessed with an ideal childhood. Pretty much the only thing that sucks now is the depression. But really... when I'm blessed with so much... I don't know. Maybe it all evens out somehow. I have such a good life, SUCH good parents. How did I get blessed with such good parents? But everyone needs their trials. I guess this is mine. I think if I didn't have the family life I did I would be so so SO screwed up. So it's good I have something to hold on to. It's been hard, lately. I've felt so mixed up. For the most part I'm happy... I just get into these moods where I forget that I'm happy. I just sit there being terribly numb and sad, and I can't remember how to be happy. Which is rather inconvient if you ask me. Anyway. I think that's all for tonight. Love, Lisa Ann