Dear Diary, My brother came home from his mission today. But sitting here at the computer, all I want to write about is how much I wish a guy liked me (perferrably one that I liked). Isn't that terrible of me? Oh, and does anyone know what's up with Cassie? Is she really so willing to let go a six-year relationship? I thought she'd put up at least a little fight, but all she said to me was, "Thanks for ushering. And dressing up. I got chewed out 'cause I forgot to tell people to dress up." HOW CAN SHE CARE SO FREAKIN' LITTLE ABOUT ME? I want to go yell in her face, "Hey? Remember me? Your Best Friend FOREVER? Guess what! I hate my life so much I wish I were dead! Guess what? I'm so depressed all I can do is sit at home all day, every day! Guess what? YOU'RE A FREAKIN' JERK TO NOT STAND BY ME THROUGH THIS!!!!!!!!" But whatever. I've done everything BUT yell that in her face. And she still hasn't changed. I guess she really doesn't love me. And all these years, I believed her when she said she did... What makes me so unlovable? Cassie doesn't love me. Jeremy doesn't love me. My family loves me, but not enough to ever go out of their way for me emotionally. Sigh. I swear I've got some curse on me or something that stops people from truly loving me... Whatever whatever whatever. Whining about it doesn't change anything. Even though it does feel kinda good. Whatever. "I want to get away, I want to get away. I want to FLY AWAY. yeah, yeah, yeah." Ha. I barely even talked about guys. And how they don't like me. And how I DO wish they did.... Whatever Lisa!!!!!! Love, Lisa Ann