Dear Diary, Life sucks. It's hard. Things happen whether you want them to or not. And I'm beginning to accept that more and more. So here is my acceptance speech for the things I'm thinking/worrying about tonight. I still think about Jeremy. The weird thing is, I don't love him anymore. But I still wish that he loved me. I don't know why. He loves Barbara now, anyway. I'm just gonna accept it. I can't make myself think of Cassie as my best friend. It does hurt; I thought we'd always be close. I don't know what happened. Maybe it was my fault, maybe it was hers, maybe both, and maybe neither. It hurts. But I don't know how to fix it. I'm just gonna accept it. I have to start at a new school where I don't know anyone, and I'm afraid that I won't get along with any of the kids. But it's the only way I can think of to get my education going. It's going to be extremely scary and probably not much fun. It's what I need to do, though. I'm just gonna accept it. I've moved into a new ward. I don't know the girls, they don't know me. I don't want to get to know them, really. I just want to have friends at church again. But it's going to take time. I'm just gonna accept it. I have depression and ADHD. These conditions have changed my life in ways I never expected--and to be honest, ways I never wanted. I delt with a lot of things the wrong way. I made a lot of mistakes because of the horrible things I've gone through. It's been a long, difficult year. I'm just gonna accept it. My life isn't at all how I wanted it to be. And somehow, some way, I'm just gonna have to accept that. Love, Lisa Ann