Dear Diary, Oh dear I haven't written in awhile. Where to start? Thursday. I touched a human brain in Psych. That was interesting. I went to Young Women's, which was a mistake because no one talked to me. Jason and I hung out for awhile. It was good. Friday. I got mad at Cassie. Well, I mean more openly. Kadee and I watched the OC. That night Kadee had plans to hang out with this girl from school. So she came to pick her up and it was Lauren. Burtenshaw. It was surprsing. Lauren and I used to be way good friends back in fourth grade, but haven't spoken to each other since... which was probably my fault. I've actually been thinking about her lately. And then she showed up on my doorstep... Anyway, I think they took pity on my plan-less Friday, and invited me along. It was fun. A little strange, but I had a lot of fun. Anyway. Saturday... I didn't feel well, and didn't do much. My mom finally bought me a new mattress! Woo! I'm hoping my neck/shoulder pains will go away now... Cassie emailed me. Said she didn't know what was going on with me, but that she's sick of me giving her the cold shoulder. Sigh. I told her we'd talk sometime. I don't know what to say. I don't know what to do... I know it seems like I'm being rude and jerk-ish and judgemental... but really my heart is breaking... Maybe it's all my fault. Maybe I'm just driving another friendship away... I've just had problems with our friendship for so long. And they never seem to get better. My mom says that she probably just doesn't have what I need in a best friend. She isn't very.... sensitive. But I still feel like a jerk. Anyway. Today! Sunday! Skipped out on Sunday School and Young Women's again. My family ate dinner at Holly's (Kadee's sister). That was nice. Kadee and I watched the Notebook. It was a super cute movie... So sad. But not tragic. Just a happy sad. lol. I'm so scared to talk to Cassie... I wish I knew what to do... Love, Lisa Ann