Dear Diary, Wow. I never go this long without writing in my diary. I have so much to update... The drama tour was absolutely fantastic. I had such a great time and saw some amazing shows and was happy almost the entire time. I hung out with Kadee, Chelsey, Garrick, Cassie, Erin, Narin, Brianne (she was there by herself and I sort of adopted her), Devin, Haleigh, Jill---everyone. It was great. I love being away, experiencing new things, all that great stuff. I also loved sleeping in a little (9ish), not having to go to school, that sort of thing. So when I came back to early mornings and catching up on schoolwork and not being happy all the time... I sort of crashed. I went to church and felt awful because no one talks to me, so that didn't help. I've missed a lot of school this past week. I've been absolutely miserable. I haven't felt this bad in a very, very long time. It brings back memories of times I thought were long gone... Things are picking up a little. I went to school Thursday and Friday and sort of survived. I started some meds, which I'm not thrilled about, but whatever. I'd like my life to be semi-stable... Today was kind of hard because... Well, Kadee's met a new guy. He's super nice, a really great guy, lives not even a half a mile away, and is just great. He really, really likes her. And she likes him. She asked him to girl's choice and he answered today... with a giant teddy bear, a rose, chocolate, and a poem. It was amazingly cute. We all went to a movie tonight and they held hands... They are adorable. Old doubts and insecurities come back to haunt me while I dream. Oh. Tonight after the movie I locked my keys in my car. I had to wake my mom up and have her come pick us up... Just as an added bonus, no one knows where the extra set of keys are. Life is so crazy I can't even explain it all. I can't even deal with it all. How does anyone deal with life? I wish... I just wish... Love, Lisa Ann