Dear Diary, HP 6th Ward hates me. Or, more specifically, they hate that I've moved into their ward. Because I have a lot of control over where my parents decide to move. I didn't even WANT to move. I was perfectly happy where I was. But I'm being punished by THEM for what my isn't MY fault anyway. From the first Sunday I was there, I could feel that I wasn't welcome. That I wasn't WANTED there. The first counsler in the Bishopric told my mom tonight that the girls "were having a hard time accepting new people, but they're working on it." Well, I can definitely see the first part. But I'm not sure how cancelling YW's and telling everyone BUT me is trying to accept me. I showed up tonight, looking like a dork. 'Cause my dad was there (he's now the 1st counlser in the YM) I stayed for opening excersizes then went home and cried. They hate me, simply because they're "a tight-knit group" and can't accept that I now live within their ward boundries. Oh, and the girl who was supposed to call me? Not only have I known and been friends with her (or, at least I thought we were friends) for the past five years, but she's Marcie Ashcroft's cousin. I moved out of Marcie's ward (and she liked me), and into her cousin's ward (and her cousin DOESN'T like me). Ironic, isn't it? I just don't understand how they hate me so much when I haven't done anything to them! I have NEVER been treated so horribly by so many people. It hurts... In other news. The guy I've been talking about asked me out on a date. I accepted. Am I a freaking idiot? YES. He still has a girlfriend, and I don't even know if I like him or not. He's not even cute, but he's so... He LISTENS to me. But he still has a girlfriend. This is going to be awkward. Why do I TRY to torture myself? But the good news? I'M GROUPING WITH MORGAN!!!!!!!!! In other news... I don't have any other news, actually. Love, Lisa Ann "trying hard to reach out but when i tried to speak out felt like no one could hear me WANTED TO BELONG HERE BUT SOMETHING FELT SO WRONG HERE so i prayed i could break away..." -Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson