allay me
Listening to: the hollow- a perfect circle
Feeling: sentimental

i've heard nothing from the university... i can't get rid of the anger. i just.. i dont know what's wrong with me at the moment... it's just... i dont know.. all that dreaming... ay. i dont know... i honestly don't know... i feel so helpless.. so sick. im not hungry... i just want to scream...

today my friend and her dad gave me a tour of the packing house.. it was amazing... and i saw a few people and a friend!

her dad... he's a pervert.. gives me an uneasy feeling.. weird vibe...

i'm really tired... im tired of waiting...

im scared.. what if i am? i've been trying to get.. but i can't... not until i... then it happens... what if i am? i don't know what i'll do... im scared.. and really confused.. i dont know what's going on.

i just can't take it, i'm not sure.. why.

people tell me to sue.. i can't... i'm just really angry...

pms?? no... i dont know.. i'm really angry... really angry. i just... i want... i dont know what i want.. i honestly dont know what i want.. im sick of just sitting here.. waiting for things to get done.. i need to go.. i need to go.

i dont know what'll become of me if i dont... i'll bore of the repetition.. already i'm sick of community college... it's ONLY BEEN A WEEK.

my english prof. just.. ay.. won't shut up... i dont agree with her teaching methods... i'm just really frustrated.. i bet her form of teaching is successful.. it's just... i cant. too angry... much too angry. why is this happening... why.... ha.. as if i were going to get an answer.. why do i ask? why am i asking why i'm asking... i dont know what to do.

the entry is far from relevant and organized.... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay... i'm really scared.

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