yesterday i ran 11 miles in 94 minutes... that's a pb!! that's going at a 8:30 pace. when i finished i felt sooo goooood, sure i had a headache but wow. wow. wow. i'm ready. well, not fully ready but i'll be ready for my race :)

after i washed the dishes, got ready for bed, and crashed. the following morning, as i was getting up i nearly collapsed. my legs were so sore and tired. i need to keep running during the week. unfortunately i got shin splints that i believe will go away soon...

so i went to the gym, he was there, i was pretty much indifferent about his presence. just a friend, whatever. actually, i'd be more attentive if i was with a friend. se manzo. so obedient, so docile. no backlash. i told him to come over right after he had gotton on one of the machines he came over, theni i told him to place his head on my shoulder and that's exactly what he did... then i spanked his butt. ahahaha.

after, we were outside, we met eachother halfway... on the last kiss i pulled away.

your time's up! my turn to play.

my intention is not to cause pain, i'm just passing the time. enjoying myself. besides, it's not like there's someone at the gym that i really connect with. i don't connect well with him, but i do admit that he is pretty attractive and a challenge. i get what i want.

this is fun but i can't help but feel a little guilty.

what am i doing...