i have a small sinus headache... ow.

so, it's been a while since i last wrote up an entry. since the last time i wrote there have been a few things that have changed.

so the gym guy and i, well i got his number and we went running together. it wasn't what i expected.

we'll just leave it at that for now.

i saw him a few more times at the gym. he's going more often now, maybe it's because i go? maybe not. i'm not holding my breath.

i've decided that though he's oh so very handsome and attractive, i'm going to back off a bit and take things as they come. him and i, we're so different, i would say that i was raised to appreciate humility before most qualities. the guy, he is not humble, in fact he's pretty haughty. again, out of feeling insecure he may have created a facade to compensate for what he believes he lacks in.

it's not my problem. he's not my student. whatever. i want to be with someone that more or less recognizes and takes on challenges, head on. is okay with admitting their weaknesses. someone that doesn't take themselves too seriously. the gym guy, he's so worried about how people will see him.

me, fuck it. i'm too tired and being myself makes me too happy to worry about what other people think. yes, i don't want to offend anyone, i try not to, but i am noooot going to censor myself for other people. i'm pretty comfortable in my own skin.

just took a gaba pill, i think that's what it's called, so sleeeepy.

so a friend of mine invited me to hang out today. i guess he's trying to rekindle something, something that never had the chance to grow... how do i feel about that?

i'm just anxious i guess. not to be with him, just to feel the warmth of another body.

this is how i know he's not the person i should be with. i guess i need more time off?? i thought i was ready. guess i was wrong. or something??

still training for the half marathon. i finally registered last week. i'm really excited. training is going well.

i almost have my 6 pack. i got the line, just have a small layer of fat on the bottom, the top shows up fine. okay too tired

i'm out.